A Red Card for me..I'm OUT!!

12:08 AM  

Now in the middle of exam week, and my mind keep on regenerating new ideas and new things. Last time i demand myself to change and now, im changed. Being in the middle of everything that needs me to be responsibled, i can feel tat my brain and my heart start to fell responsible for my own future....

Stated in my past post Black Rainbow tat i feel shame of myself for being the same even after two years..Neah~..now i wish i had never changed..

Where's my mood??
Where's my spirit??
What am I now??

One thing i like about myself now, thanks to the process of finding practical company..I realize no one will ever hired us(upm science com student)coz we lake of abilities.. Im journeying for more knowledge now.

One thing i dont like about myself now, my spiritual life..its decreasing and somehow..it influence my way of thinking.. Even a person like ROsE-san would find bible verse or may be she is doing daily bible, i should be ashamed...not saying you RoSe,,but me myslf..My resolution for year 2006 is to be a good guy, but i forget to work it side by side with GOD, my precious ONE and only ONE. I look back at the list of resolution for years 2006, i realised that most resolution i stated out..Its everything about journeying with GOD. But somehow this is the least things i'd done in this new semester..Sh*T...I say i need to change...but not in this way...BUT..Todays trip to Zoo Negara changed me and avoid me from creating a black spot in my life..Thanks to someone, HE show me Red card and send me out of the field of Devil..

Neah~~ From now onwards.. I'm good guy..not perfect one but searching for perfectness..Pray for me for those who believe in Him....Dont topekong me...haha